So , what happened ?
I hear that a lot , when people see me after a tour. It always send me into a bit of a trance.
It’s not that I don’t like talking to people. In spite of the recluse image , I value quality communication., And enjoy new scenes. It’s just that there’s never enough time or resources to get out a lot. There’s a lot of art to be done, and I do engage that rat race like everyone else , in my own special way.
It’s the volume of the experiences that does it. I still haven’t learned to glass through life , unaffected by what I see. And I see quite a lot.
Sometimes I can get jaded enough that I start to not notice things, and begin to comfortably and mindlessly drift , but something always brings me back , like a club to the dome , as they say. Some highest of the high experiences , coupled with witnessing the hardest edges of reality can keep one in an acutely observational and aware state. Your vision of an artist might be rather glamorous , but I’m here to say it’s a raw and unfiltered way to live. You have to be open to things , but not all things are awesome.
My drive as an artist has always been about using art to help the things I can , on all levels , through the act of conscious creativity , and to manifest a few of my own dreams through the same process. It’s been quite a ride/battle/process/learning experience , and the paradox is strong out there these days. These are not times for the meek. The mind-blowing global validation of my sonic and graphic art is almost unbelievable , and can be such high energy it’s hard to contain properly. But theres still all the things and friends you can’t help properly either. There’s the people who want to take advantage of your necessarily open demeanor , the hustles , the posers.
There’s your best friends losing it or having accidents you can do absolutely nothing to prevent. There’s the money flow issues , and you might even find yourself homeless ,while you’re still trying to sort the rest of that out. There’s the jealous people that will try to break you to boost their own twisted mental status.
Occasionally you have the best experience of your life playing a set in an amazing place or having an honest interaction , or something , and that couple of hours somehow balances everything , completely. It’s almost bipolar.
If I’ve learned anything about all of this , it’s to pay attention to the background noise , that barely audible mix of the sounds and textures of the energies and frequencies of life and the universe., And the messages presented within that realm. The overall energetic ring to things. The resonance of the scene.
It doesn’t lie.
I see so many situations where people make assumptions about how things should be , more based on their programming than what they actually experience. I do it myself. We see our preconcieved notions and belief systems rather than what’s happening in front of us. We try to make the now and future perform to our standards. We dwell in the comfort of the rare successes, or those of others were told to envy, as if they’re normal ,and measure all things by that. It warps the reality we occupy.
If we could all take a step back for a minute , and listen to the hum , the energetic resonance of our and others situations , I think we could do a lot better at working out all that stuff that comes in between things. You know , an honest non agendized perspective might actually allow one to see the truth , and act accordingly to promote or correct things.
I know it’s a tall order.
But I also know that at those amazing shows/trips/adventures, when it’s done , and the Soundsystem etc. is gone , there’s still a current of energy that remains and projects endlessly affecting everything it encounters. That resonance remains forever..
So let’s do more of that.
What kind do you create?
Guess it’s time to hit the road again..
Peace out there..